Blog Myself Thin

lol... Im Baaack!

2011-10-02T20:50:00.000-07:00

Yes, yes I know... my last post stated that I was back to Weight Watchers, back to the gym etc. Well, life had other plans. It was an interesting summer personally for me, one which made me step back and take a long hard look at my life. I had some eye opening experiences to say the least... but anyway....

I also had months and months of one sickness after another. It would go in about 2 week cycles where I would get sick, feel icky, finally start feeling better, have about 5 days of feeling good and then I would be sick again. So, after an irritating sickness schedule I finally went to a doctor that decided the best thing was to have my tonsils out. It has been one week since surgery and though my throat is still very sore and I cant eat anything I am hoping that it will cure my sickness cycle.

So, thats why Im here.... my personal life finally feels a little under control, my sickness is hopefully taken care of and I have no more excuses to put things off any longer. I will say that I have maintained my weight at 160 all summer so that I am proud of!

I am excited to start my execise journey AGAIN! and to catch up with all of you! It will take time for me to get my energy back but Im ready to go!!!

I have been bad...

2011-03-09T18:52:00.000-08:00

...so, so, so bad!

Its a habit I have. I am going along fairly nicely, eating well, exercising and then WHAM! All of a sudden I stop. And not just stop one thing, I stop them all... no exercising, no Weight Watchers, nothin! I also stop blogging as you can tell :)

Well, this little set back has not lasted as long as some. I sucked it up, went to Weight Watchers this morning to see what the damage was (+3) and met my trainer at the gym this afternoon. I am determined to get back on track. Summer is just right around the corner people! :)

Weigh In

2011-02-16T17:16:00.000-08:00

In my last post I was so worried that I wouldnt be able to stay within my daily points and not use ANY bonus points (since I didnt have any left). Well, I did it! I stayed within my points for 2 days and when I pulled up here I felt really good.Staying in my points and tracking paid off. I lost 1.6 pounds!! Yay me!
This week I will continue to track my points and I will also kick up my exercise so hopefully next week I can have a loss as well. I also wanted to thank you all for your encouraging words!

Weekly Update

2011-02-13T19:57:00.000-08:00

Well, here is how my week has gone. I still have 2 days until weigh in and my points start over and I have ZERO bonus points left. I splurged a little when we went out for Valentines Day yesterday. The good news is that I didnt go OVER my allotted points. Now I just have to eat really well the next two days.

I was reading this magazine today (Muscle and Fitness Hers). Now these types of magazines inspire me for some reason. I love looking at the pictures and seeing the workouts the pros do. Do these magazines inspire you or discourage you?

One of the ads in this magazine inspired me... I loved what it said and I hope to be there someday soon. Here's what the ad said....

My body is like a canvas
Motivation is my brush
I control every curve
and make no excuses
I turn heads
and hold my head high
I have no bad angles
I am confident in every light
I break limitations
Quitting is not an option

Weigh in...

2011-02-09T18:25:00.000-08:00

So, today was my first Weight Watchers weigh in... Ugh!

I lost .4 .... yes, POINT 4 pounds. I am trying NOT to be upset and NOT to get frustrated. But Come On! And yes, its still a loss blah, blah, blah. I was just hoping for more. Ok... now that that's out of my system I will be positive and continue on my journey ... but I think Im gonna blame that scrawny weight loss on the Super Bowl :)

How to eat an elephant?

2011-02-08T19:19:00.000-08:00

Have you ever heard the quote "How do you eat an elephant? ... One bite at a time"

I heard that tonight and it really hit home. I have been feeling rather frustrated with my weight loss recently and when I heard this I had to remind myself that just like I cant eat an elephant in one bite, I cant lose all the weight I want in one day or one week, or even one month. Its going to take time. I am going to have setbacks. I am going to have to work for it (even though I dont want to sometimes).

I also need to remember to focus on MY elephant and not someone elses. We all have things we are working towards and even though someone may seem perfect, they are not. They have problems too. Its sometimes hard to remember that when you're at the gym and the skinny b$%#'s on the treadmill next to you are complaining about having to buy a size 7 pants! Thats when I have to chant "everyone has problems, everyone has problems" :)

This post was more for me than for anyone else, I just had to vent and remind myself to eat my elephant one bite at a time.Although, It wouldn't hurt if my elephant lost some weight so I had a smaller elephant to eat :)

Thin is the New Happy

2011-02-07T18:53:00.000-08:00

This is what Im reading right now. I must admit that I bought the book based solely on the picture on the cover. I was thinking "I can relate to that, I must see what this book is about" :)

Im about half way through and I must say that I love it. The Author, Valerie Frankel has so many good points and sayings. I have had several "AHA" moments.

First, We all know the 5 stages of grief right. Well, did you know that they can be applied to dieting. Here, let me tell you...
1. Denial: "This diet is going to be the one that works"
2. Anger: "Everyone else has cake!"
3. Bargaining: "I cheated today so I will work out extra hard tomorrow"
4. Depression: "I cant believe I ate that whole thing"
5. Acceptance: "Its useless, I will never be thin."

The first paragraph had me sucked in... "Im a diet addict. I exist on a continuous loop of starting a diet, recovering from one and planning the next. Im either counting calories, fat grams, carbs or the number of days until I begin anew (and it's always "for the last time"). Dieting defines me."

Those are just a few of the highlights from the beginning of the book. I will blog more about it when I finish it.

On another note, weigh in is in 2 days and I ate a TON for the Super Bowl. I had saved ALL my bonus points to use so Im hoping it didnt hurt me too badly. I guess we will see how I did on Wednesday :)

Meet the Newest Weight Watchers Member

2011-02-03T20:11:00.000-08:00

Ok, I did it... I gave in and joined Weight Watchers, AGAIN! I am rather excited about this new plan. I think its important that carbs are taken into calculation and because I am a carb addict I am hoping that watching my carbs will help my weight loss. I am also excited that fruits are zero points.

Today was my first day counting points and I did so good! I stayed right within my points and didnt use any of my bonus points. I drank all my water and got in all my dairy. I need to work on adding more fruits and veggies but I stopped at the grocery store and stocked up so I think I will do better tomorrow.

I attached a picture of me today on my way to the gym. I made a few small notes of the things I am hoping to change with Weight Watchers and my exercise program. My 5% goal is 8 pounds. I would like to have that lost by March 1st. So, here we go!

To Join or Not to Join...

2011-02-01T09:45:00.000-08:00

I have been debating lately whether to join Weight Watchers again or not. I know their program works. I have done it before and I always lose weight. Here's my dilemma... I know they just changed their program and I dont want to have to buy all new books. Silly huh. I need to just join because I always do better when I have to be accountable and I have to weigh in. Ive heard the new program is really good. Ok, Ive talked myself into it... I will keep you all posted.

On another note I weighed myself this morning and I am down 2.5 pounds. Yay me!

Fear Number Two...

2011-01-25T17:07:00.001-08:00

Ok people, this is a big day. The day that I conquer one of my biggest fears! I have NEVER liked telling people what I weighed even when I was at my thinnest so for me to post my weight on here for all to see is a huge step in the right direction. I have come to the realization that I need to stop hiding from my weight. After all, it is just a number (one that I pay WAY too much attention to) but a number just the same. I need to focus on how I am feeling, how my clothes fit etc. Not the number on the scale. So, Im going to try! Here we go...

My weight as of this morning- 165 pounds
Goal Weight- 135 pounds

30 pounds to go!!

Fear Number One!

2011-01-23T11:01:00.000-08:00

Ok, so my last blog was all about fear and one of my biggest fears is posting pictures of myself. I will only post a pic of myself on my blog, facebook... anywhere if I dont have double chins, my thighs arent showing and I look fairly acceptable. Well, Im ready to face that fear. I am posting a VERY unattractive "before" picture.

Now, let me explain about this "before" picture. Yes, its before... because I have lost weight since then, about 15-20 lbs (not exactly sure). But I am using the "After" picture as my "before" picture from here on out. Did that make sense? I am still about 30 pounds from my goal weight and I have really, REALLY been slacking!

So, as part of facing my fears I am posting these pics to jump start my weight loss again. To show me where I have been and what I have done so far but still as a reminder of how far I have yet to go.

Ok... here I go.... deep breath... publish post.... now!

I am INSPIRED!!

2011-01-22T20:32:00.000-08:00

I just finished watching the movie, Julie and Julia with Meryl Streep. I am inspired. The movie is based on a true story of a woman who cooked her way through Julia Child's entire cookbook and blogged about it along the way. She gave herself a deadline of one year to finish what she set out to do. And while I have no desire to cook my way through Julia Child's cookbook, or any cookbook for that matter. I do have my own goals that I would love to accomplish. Goals that are constantly set and constantly never reached. So what is my main goal, you ask? One that you know I have, one that I think everyone has...lose weight. But not only lose the weight, become healthy, become fit, become more active.

I have started this daunting task many, many, many, many times and each time I give up. Yes, I have had some success but not the kind of success that I desire. As I ponder the way I have tackled this goal time and time again I have finally realized that fear has held me back. Not the fear of being thin. But the fear of failure. Usually when I start down the long daunting road of diet and exercise I don't tell anyone that I've started this journey because I don't want everyone monitoring what I eat. I don't want people to think "she's no thinner than the last time I saw her, I thought she was on a diet". I also have NEVER told anyone an actual starting weight or measurement.

So how has this movie inspired me? It has made me realize that we are all human beings. We all have goals that we have never reached. Most of us have my exact goal and very few of us actually reach the goal of weighing less and being more healthy. What am I so afraid of? So people will know what I actually weigh...so what. My true friends won't judge me because of it. And I may just get the support I need instead of the criticism that I fear. And maybe...just maybe if I can get up the courage to actually post a starting weight and inches I will have the courage to reach my goal once and for all. And if I inspire anyone else along the way than that's just a bonus!

**On a side note- looking back at previous posts, they are so sporatic with no regularity... Im going to try to fix that! :)

Day Two of Challenge

2010-09-02T09:19:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a great day. I drank 8 glasses of water, I stayed within my calories and I had a great workout. Yesterday was suppose to be my first training session with my trainer but there was some mix up with the scheduling and when I got there my original trainer was not there. Since it wasnt my fault they gave me a free training session yesterday and rescheduled my regular session for Saturday. Lucky me.

As for the training session... it kicked my but. We focused on legs and I was BURNING by the time I was done. This morning I feel ok but Im sure as the day goes on the pain will gradually come. So, All in all it was a great day!! How did you do??

Today my goal is to drink at least 8 glasses of water again, obviously stay within my calories and have another killer workout... this time cardio.

September Challenge

2010-09-01T11:57:00.000-07:00

I just joined the "Lose 10 pounds in September" challenge on sparkpeople.com. I am so excited to get this started. I weighed in this morning at exactly 170.... grrr! But its exactly what I thought. By this time in 30 days I WILL be at 160. My goal is to be at least 150 by Christmas. I think I can do it if I just stick to what I know.

I know how to eat healthy... implementing it is hard! But I WILL do it!

I know that I need to exercise more often... and I WILL do it!!

As far as an exercise program goes... I dont quite know what I am doing BUT I hired a trainer so I should have NO excuse.

Lets get going on weighing less and living more!

Im back.... Again

2010-07-21T11:16:00.000-07:00

Yeah, yeah... Im back, AGAIN! It seems that it is my cycle to blog and disappear, blog and disappear. That cycle is like my weight loss journey as well... diet and stop, diet and stop! So yes, Im back again and that means that I am also back to watching what I eat and exercising. I havent had any huge eye opening moments to tell you all about or discovered any tricks or secrets, Im just ready to start eating more healthy and exercising again. Seems like I use that word alot... AGAIN!! I need to stop with that word and I also need to stop STOPPING!! I need to just continue whether I get frustrated or not, whether I am seeing results or not. Stop STOPPING!! So, thats my ramble for today but hey, at least I posted something. I WILL be back soon with pictures and actual weight updates ***Cringe***

2009-12-04T07:41:00.000-08:00

**One of life's mysteries is how a two-pound box of candy can make a woman gain five pounds.**

Got up at 6:30 this morning for the SECOND day in a row!! Ran on the treadmill well... ran/walked on the treadmill but Im so proud of myself for actually waking up. I also spent yesterday making Chicken Chili, Lowfat Chicken salad and baking squash so I have a stocked fridge full of good food. I think Im finally back on track!

wow...

2009-12-03T08:48:00.000-08:00

Wow, June was the last time I blogged and since its been that long since I blogged it should come as no surprise that I have GAINED weight. I just love food a little too much I think. Last night I was at Target. I decided to try on a sweater and while I was in that dressing room I started looking in the three-way-mirror (worst thing EVER invented). I was so disappointed in what i saw... back rolls!! Since when do I have BACK ROLLS!!! Holy Crap! I need to do something about this situation. So I am back to blogging. Got up at 6:30 and headed to the gym this morning and I have vowed that I am not eating :) ok... well, I will have to eat but what I do eat needs to change! its going to be hard especially starting at Christmas time but I am figuring that I am just getting a jump start on my New Years Resolution.

AAAAHHHH!!!!

2009-06-30T14:43:00.000-07:00

Have you ever had one of those days when all you do is yell. You yell at your kids, yell at your husband, yell at the dog, yell at the kids some more!!! That is how my day is going. Im not sure why Im so stressed but I am seriously on EDGE!!! The bad thing is that all this yelling and stressing makes me head straight for the cupboard for comfort. So far I have only eaten a Fiber One bar for comfort but I can tell that if I dont change my attitude soon my evening is going to be a terrible snacky one! So... here I am blogging about it instead. I think most of my stress comes from the fact that my daughter has been home from school sick today and yesterday and all her and my son have done is fight. Im tired of hearing the tv ALL DAY LONG and it seems like I can get NO peace and quiet!

Oh Help Me!!! Summer vacation starts next week and I have this to deal with Every Day!! I better stock up on Weight Watchers cookies!!

No posts = No motivation

2009-06-29T11:02:00.000-07:00

I think its funny that I can tell how a week went by looking at my blog posts and my food journal entries. Notice- the first week I posted every day, the second week I posted like 3 times and last week I posted.... NONE!! This is how that relates to my weight loss

Week 1- Posted every day- lost 3.5 lbs
Week 2- Posted 3 times- lost 1.5 lbs
Week 3- Posted ZERO- Lost ZERO!!

I have still kept up with my exercising pretty well but without good eating to go along with it, I dont seem to benefit as far as weight loss goes.

So, Im back to blogging in hopes that I will have a good week! I guess we will all know depending on how many days this week that I post :)

Todays Weigh-in

2009-06-22T19:51:00.000-07:00

Well, I made it through the weekend and I managed to lose 1.5 lbs last week. Its not as much as I would have liked but it was a loss so Im happy.

Update for the week...

2009-06-19T20:19:00.000-07:00

This week has been pretty good. I have stayed within my points on most days and I have only had to dip into my Bonus points a tiny bit! My exercise has been good, I have rediscovered my "Firm" Dvd's which make my butt burn. I am excited to weigh in on Monday as long as I keep within my points over the weekend :)

Where a kid can be a kid!

2009-06-18T19:34:00.000-07:00

Summertime always brings out the most scantily clad, oddly shaped people that I have ever seen and if you would like variety to gape at just pay a visit to your local Chuck E. Cheese.

Now, I am no Barbie doll (FAR from it) but I know what parts of my body should ALWAYS be covered up NO matter what!! I honestly have a hard time thinking that these particular people can look in the mirror and say "I look good, I am ready to go out into public." Anyway....

My children have been begging me to take them to The Cheese for quite some time now and since its been raining pretty steadily here, I finally broke down and took them. I had no sooner opened the door when I was greeted by a 6 foot tall smiley mouse asking for a high five. The pizza was expensive and disgusting and their "salad bar" had more fattening, creamy side dishes than it had actual salad.

Not only was the food disgusting but I am somewhat of a germ-a-phobe and watching my kids touch every game and token was just about enough to put me over the edge. Combine this with the extremely large and sweaty lady in a wife-beater tank top that was standing next to me playing skee ball and I packed up my children and quickly vacated the premises.

So that wraps up my fun-filled day! I will NOT be visiting there again anytime soon!

**Note** If you are the woman who happened to be playing skee ball next to me, Im sure you are a lovely person, just purchase some deoderant :)

Weigh to Go!!

2009-06-15T08:21:00.000-07:00

Today is my 1st weigh in and here are the results.......

Starting Weight- 170

Current Weight- 166.5

Total loss- 3.5 lbs

Yay me!!! That really motivates me to keep going this week!

My Trip to The Old Spaghetti Factory

2009-06-13T08:08:00.000-07:00

Last night was my first time eating out this week while REALLY counting points and being on Alli. I think I did really well considering that we went to one of my fave restaurants... The Old Spaghetti Factory!

First... I had salad (good) but I had regular dressing (bad) .
I only had ONE piece of bread (good). I had baked chicken (good) but it came with a side of spaghetti with mizithra cheese which I had half of (BAD). I ordered water instead of coke (good) but I had a few spoonfulls of ice cream for dessert (bad).

So I did WAY better than I usually would have since my meal usually consists of a loaf of bread, a large order of spaghetti w/mizithra cheese, extra dressing on the salad and a whole bowl of ice cream. I used 10 of my bonus points but I still have 23 bonus for the rest of the weekend. I think I am doing pretty well but we'll see what the scale has to say on Monday!!!-Krista

Jogging = Time to Think

2009-06-12T09:34:00.000-07:00

While I was jogging this morning I started out with a really not-s0-good attitude. I was concentrating on my foot being bruised, the pain in my side, how much I dislike running, I need new shoes, there are so many other things I can be doing with this time etc, etc, etc! I was thinking about all of the negative things about running.

I starting looking around and noticed how blue the sky was. There was a nice breeze blowing the scent of flowers my way.... the sun was shining and I immediately realized that there are so many good things about jogging. Not only is it healthy for me but the fact that I am actually healthy enough to jog shouldnt be taken for granted. My attitude soon changed and I actually ended up enjoying my jog. I also ran further and longer than I had originally intended to.

So there is todays thought; Dont take for granted what your body can do! Instead, get out and enjoy it!!

Udate: I have now been counting points for 5 days and I have only used 3 of my bonus points. I am finding that my cravings are less and I am actually wanting fruits and veggies. Weird! I did weights last night with my hubby, we focused on arms, and by the end my arms were SO tired. Thats a good thing right :) Still no side effects with Alli which I think is great because I have heard horror stories. I think the possibility of side effects are scaring the crap out of me so I am sticking to my plan better than usual. Hey... whatever works!

I am a little concerned about the upcoming weekend since that is when I tend to blow it! I am determined to stick to my points and not let my hard work this week go to waste!! Wish me luck!! -Krista

Lets call this the BEFORE pic!!

2009-06-11T07:55:00.000-07:00

I am hyperventilating from actually posting this pic. Usually it would have been deleted RIGHT AWAY!! But I am being BRAVE and posting it here instead in the hopes that it will motivate me to stick to my goals.

I know that I am holding my son and its not the greatest picture but the reason why I am posting it is because my butt looks HUGE and my pants are pulling across my thigh. Pretty :) This was just taken on Memorial day a few weeks ago so its accurate. Even though I wish it wasnt.

Now for yesterdays update. I stayed right within my points. Yay! I drank all my water. Yay! and I went to the gym .Yay! I did the elliptical machine for 26 minutes so its not as long as I would like but at least its something.

I was reading an interesting article yesterday at the gym about Belly fat so I thought Id post it here.

Flat Abs in 3 steps

1. Do heart pumping cardio at least 3 days a week at an intensity rate of 7 or 8. Women doing five workouts weekly who did this for 16 weeks cut ab fat by 8%.

2. When doing crunches hold a 2 pound weight or medicine ball with both hands, arms extended overhead. This strategy improves core activation by nearly 300%.

3. Munch on an ounce of nuts a day. Eating nuts helped studied participants trim excess belly fat.

So there is my update for today! Lets keep up the good work!! -Krista

Keeping a Food Journal

2009-06-10T07:47:00.000-07:00

Like I'm sure many of you have, I have heard over and over and OVER again how important it is to keep a food journal. You wouldnt think that this is a hard task but for me its like pulling teeth! I dont know why I have such a hard time with this... but I do.

So for the past couple of days I have been FORCING myself to write down EVERYTHING that I eat and I can tell you that I do eat alot better when I have to write it down. My goal this week is to journal my food EVERYDAY!! I think it will help me dramatically.

Now for my update on yesterday:

I used 3 of my Bonus Points but I just couldnt resist the tortilla chips that my husband brought home from our favorite restaurant but I didnt eat the entire bag so Im proud of myself!

I did not exercise at all yesterday which is terrible of me so today I really need to get a good workout in.

So far I think I have been doing really well especially compared to some of my other weight loss ventures. Off to work out- see ya tomorrow! -Krista

My Family Tree

2009-06-09T07:04:00.000-07:00

First, let me do an update about my day yesterday. I did GOOD!!

I stayed within my WW points, I drank all my water and I exercised for 30 minutes. I need to step up my exercise program but I am nursing a hurt foot so that will come with time.

I took my Alli pills and so far no side effects (knock on wood:) So I am hoping that today will be just as good as yesterday.

Now for todays topic... Recently I have been thinking about my family and the hereditary things that may be passed down to me. Let me tell you- its NOT good news! Here's a breakdown:

Diabetes: Mother, Aunt, Maternal Grandfather

Cancer: Brother, Paternal Grandfather

Heart Problems: Father, Maternal Grandmother

Kidney Problems: Maternal Grandmother (she is on dialysis)

Memory Loss: Paternal Grandmother

Obesity: Very common on BOTH sides of the family!

Wow! when you actually write it down its even more scary than just thinking about it. I have terrible genes being passed to me from both sides. Right now I am healthy but I know that if I dont change my eating habits and lose the weight NOW that I will most likely inherit several of these things. SCARY!!

So there is something to think about... what can be passed down to you??

Yesterday I forgot to post my statistics so here they are and let me tell you- this takes ALL of my courage to post these on here but here we go (gasp)

My Statistics

Height- 5'4"

Start Weight- 170 lbs

Goal Weight- 145 lbs

Now on with the day!! -Krista

Day #1- Here we go!!

2009-06-08T07:55:00.000-07:00

Ok, here I go!! Its day #1 of my "NEW" life and by new I mean my new eating habits, new exercise habits and just an all around healthier me.

I have decided to start this blog to track my progress in hopes that if I think other people will read it that I will actually stick to something. I am 30 years old with 2 kids ages 6 and 3. I have been married to my HS sweetheart for 9 years.

I have not always had weight issues. I was average in high school and when I was around 18 I was pretty skinny. After I had my daughter I had great success with Weight Watchers and I lost all my baby weight plus more. I kept it off and even after I had my son I was still a healthy weight but the past 3 years have been a stressfull roller coaster of moving, changing jobs, losing jobs, more moving blah, blah, blah. I think the stress is part of my problem. I turn to food for comfort and lets just say that it shows!!

So today I start with healthy eating. I think I will follow Weight Watchers because I have had success on it before and I like the plan. I have also bought some Alli pills but I am a little scared to use them after reading the side effects. We will see!

I have so many things I want to blog about but I think I will go and exercise instead. Wish me luck on my journey.

-Krista